6 Years Ago Today

Jef asked me to marry him 6 years ago today... This is a little something for him:

Before we dated we were friends... This is mid-2000

October 5th- 2002

Everytime I look at your face I am overcome with the emotion and the knowing that you are my true love. It doesn't matter what the weather is doing or how my day is going, because when I look into your bright blue eyes it all just melts away. I have no worries, no fear, no uncertainty of what tomorrow will bring.

September 19th, 2007

I find myself memorizing your features- the way your lips curl, the way your eyes dance and the way those tiny lines around your eyes squint up when you tell a story. The very way you tell a story gives me unimaginable pleasure.

Jef ... Back in the 70's

I can see you in the stories you share with me- swinging from a vine over the lake, riding a motorcycle, flying on a plane to Germany at age 9, peddling your bicycle down Black Car Trail- I can see it all. Your memories are my memories. Your being has become my being. Through proxy, your soul is now my soul. I have gathered an amount of purity from you because of this simple fact. I can slow down and see the world. I can be in the moment, and still living my life and moving forward with you.

Cozumel, 2007

For us there was a literal beginning to our relationship, even when it seems as though time has always just been eternal for us. There are no permanent boundaries. There are no marker lines. It simpy IS. It's all in the now, or the just now. It doesn't seem like there are years and years that have passed and our lives congruent. It's continous. It has flow and rythm and light. It reminds me of dancing barefoot in the grass, spinning until I fall down, then laughing until I lose my breath.

This photo (my blogger face) was taken February 10, 2001, at the top of our driveway. One of my favorite photos of us ever!

I worry a lot about you, about your health, about the day that- inevitably- I will have to tell you goodbye for a very long time until I can make the journey into the next life with you. I know we are still young, and it's not like death is around the corner, but as fast as the time we've shared has gone so far, I can only imagine how quickly the rest will tick by us without our knowing.

Jef and Ava in B&K's front yard this past weekend.

I want you to know, my Jeffie, that you are everything to me that I have ever wanted, needed, and desired. You are that, and so much more. Words cannot convey the emotion that swells in my heart at the mere thought of you. Simply by your existance I have become a more complete person. A person I never thought I'd be. A person I never thought I would be worthy of being. You've taught me the value of self-worth. You have opened my eyes and helped me see how beautiful and creative and smart I am. You have challenged me to become bigger, better, and faster in whatever I decide to do. Thank you for all of that, and thank you now for everything more I will learn as we continue to grow.

Moments after Ava was born- September 19, 2006.

I love to hear you tell me how proud you are of me... Proud for going back to school and doing well, for carrying and giving life to our daughter, for being a strong woman who wont give up in the face of adversity. I should be the one telling you how proud I am. YOU made me strong. YOU made me resillient. YOU, baby. It's all you.

For me, it's most definately all you.

My smiling guy!

Thank you for asking me to be your wife 6 years ago today.

--The Milk Maid says I love you Big J

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